CR to IL

Yep, skrg lg ada di cedar rapid, salah satu kota di iowa. kesini dalam rangka nikahannya vina sama iqbal. yep lagi, pernikahan di negeri orang. aku bener2 salut sm mereka. berani mengambil langkah besar seperti itu, apalagi di negeri orang. mereka juga baru ketemu 6 bln lalu tp udah berani...ck ck ck. saluut deh sama mereka. td pas ijab kabul iqbal tegang banget, eh si vina kebalikan. cengar cengir kayak ini pesta ultah aja. bener2 anak itu, gak berubah dari pertama aku kenal sampe sekarang...

besok insya Allah berangkat ke illinois, tepatnya di champaign, kota dimana ade, angga sama heri tinggal. mau stay disana sampe taun depan. bosan bgt di muscatine, ga ngerjain apa2. tiap hari kerjanya makan, ceting, pelototin salju (mana pemandangannya jelek bgt><), ngobrol, tidur. sampe sumpek rasanya, gak tahan liat anak2 yg lain pada kliling2 usa. so here i am, trying to make worthy *bener gak siy bhsnya*.

ya sutralah...

Urdu's poetry

When loneliness surrounds me
I feel shadows coming near me

I stop breathing for a moment or two
My heart seems like racing in me

I become prisoner of memories
Tears in sad eyes, hurt in me

Held back sobs when they hear
Cries they wonder come from me

Games of love are so unreal
How can I tell what life offered me

Sometime I feel to take my life
But sufferings won't end without me

If I die my soul will endure them
Who will get what solace without me

Thinking all this I pass my nights
My heart's pains never leave me

........... hik hik...so saaad :(

me with my self...

yep...just me with myself now. no one besides me :(

I felt lonely since i came here and now become worse.huhuhu...i miss my father a lot, my mom too of course...

Oh God, what can i do now?

oke, let me share my pic so i can feel much better.

only pictures and travelling that makes me enjoy to live here.

i don't know, i feel desperate now!!

update!!

someone asked me to updated my blog, so here i am, writing my story since the last time i left this blog. i such a kind of busy these days...my classes just begin efter one month we have to worked as our one of program in college. i worked in ames, that's why there was so many story about ames. actally, i made this blog in ames^^

mm...what i want to write? now i'm in tennessee with rika and her mentor family to celebrated thanksgiving. somene asked me (myria actually) why i celebrated thanksgiving?? and i really confused to answer it. first think, i came here because i want to go to somewhere else instead of just stayed in iowa. secondly, because this is free so why not?!^^ and the third one, i want to know about american culture. what they did, what they cooked and something like that. so thanksgiving just and only the last reason why i came here...

lets forget about it. let me tell you my other story. but i didn't have one!!^^

okey, let me tell you my journey since in iowa untill now. but there's nothing special to tell. rika and her mentor family ( i called her now with "mommy") picked me up at 4 pm and we drived to missouri and stayed there for one night. in missouri, we drived to st.louis and saw arch. what a beautiful place. i took a lot of pictures but i didn't download it yet so i just take this pic from internet.

yup...this is arch. it made from the stone (or kinda thing that i don't know the name). it's really high....i forgot the measure but it's huge!! we can see this arch from illinois which is near from st.louis missouri. if you still want me to tell you about this arch, why don't know google it and find the information with yourself^^

what else??...oh yeah, next december we have a break for almost 5 weeks and i have a plan to go to chicago with andy and meet ade, angga and heri there. but i'm not sure about it. i don't know why. maybe because i already boring to be here. i really boring!!!really is...

i just wanna go home...like michael buble's song:

let me go home...

i'm just too far

from where you are

i wanna come home

and nidji's song:

aku ingin pulang...

ingin cepat pulang...

berikan sayapmu

agar aku pulang

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My first snow...^^

Yeah...my first snow. mm...actually my second but this is a good one though.
I saw a lot of snow fallen down from the sky and it was so so beautiful. I saw it while i heard some my favorite music and i felt like I'm in heaven...^^

The bad thing is I didn't bring my camera. why i forgot it?? damn it!
Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and the day after that, i will bring my camera. sure i am!! I don't want to miss a thing...(like aerosmith's song)...i don't want to miss my first snow, every detail, every inch...^^

I'll post my pic after this...then i'll showed it to my firends, families, enemies...whoever want to see my pic...wahahaha...so narsis!!

piss ah...

Iowa International Fellows Program

Yeah...that program was awsome. The first time i thought it would be a little bit boring and i will be sleepy all the time

I'm going to Des Moines

Sambil nunggu bapak Virgil menjemputku untuk berangkat ke Des Moines, ga ada salahnya nulis2 sesuatu. sebenarnya bete juga, secara skrg br jam stengah 2, trus virgil dtgnya jam 3. yaaah...bosan deh...

eh, mau pengakuan dosa nih. aku kan tinggal di rmh ini, rumahnya ibu alta, sdh sejak 2 minggu lalu. kami emang jarang ngobrol dan ketemu. msg2 sibuk dg urusan sendiri. trus pas hari ini hari terakhirku disini, aku jg ga ketemu sama bliau. sbnrnya td mlm dan td pagi mau nyamperin tp kok aku malu yah, hihihihi....slain malu, aku juga nunggu beliaunya yg datang untuk menemuiku. tp mgk dipikirnya aku capek atau tidur atau apalah makanya bliau ga datang...

ada rasa bersalah juga sih. bkn bersalah, tp prasaan ga enak hati. masak udah tinggal dirumahnya, gratis lg, dg sgala fasilitas mulai dr kulkas, tivi, wireless plus kmr mandi yg super lengkap, masak iya aku ga ada rasa trima kashnya??...emang salah satu kelemahanku adalah aku ga peka lingkungan. hampir aja aku ga ngasih kado plus kartu ucapan trima kasih ke beliau. kalo ga jim mourse yg kasi aku kartu ucapan plus pin ISU 2 mlm yg lalu..

hhhhh......what's wrong with me...?? kok ga bisa berubah seeeh..?? kubayangkan kalo nnati suatu saat aku udah ada suami, trus tinggal sm mertua..whaaaaaaaaaaaa.....mati kutu plg. mkg sang mertua akan bertanya2 dlm hati, kok bisaaaa ada cewek macam gini... :(

udah ah, ga usah dipikirin. yg ptg bentar lg aku bakal tinggalkan kota Ames ini. rada2 sedih jg tp ya mo gmana??..ke Des Moines mo ngikutin seminar ataw conference ataw apalah namanya bareng International student yg ada di sluruh Iowa ini. mdh2an acaranya plus org2nya menarik spy kegalauan hatiku ini bisa hilang...

Tuhan, ampuni aku....hiks